Behavioral Studies
Okay,
So this is just a thing I notice… when a girl encounters another girl… and it seems she feels in-confident, she flips her hair. Weather its a challenging flip of the hair or a low-self esteem flip of the hair… its so weird.
Idk maybe im observing this all wrong but its something I notice… I was sitting across this girl… who I semi-know… under weird circumstances… once she realized it was me she was flipping her hair like crazy and all… I actually felt uncomfortable… because how we are tied is through this guy… maybe she considers me a challenger? idk… its making me uncomfortable and I just want to study! I dont care about the stupid guy anyways! girls please chill outt
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When I watch this video…
I feel like im talking to myself. When I watch this video I remember… I look at the bags under my eyes, I remember all the pain, I remember all the stress, how tired I was, how I kept on pushing though it all… most important I remember how happy I could still be amongst it all. I remember that I can do this… I remember that I have overcome so much and theres a burning fire inside. I need passion in my life again
Everything happens for a reason
I have always said that everything happens for a reason its true…
sometimes its painful… but you need to get through the pain in order to grow and to see the good.
A good example of this is… I got my keys locked in the car… and I have no spare key and no triple A… I was exhausted and it looked like it would rain soon.
I stayed calm and thought on my feet. I called every friend I knew looking for someone who would be willing to help.
The ironic thing is the reason I locked my keys in the car was because I just got off the phone with my boyfriend after nearly breaking up. The result is we didnt, but it was close… well I guess I just wasnt thinking straight and poof! my keys got locked away.
Soo I did have a friend who with no questions raced his way over to help. I was so thankful and greatful, I just cant explain it. I realized something right then and there… I realized how hypocritical I am, I realized what a bad friend I have been to this person. I realized I have tried to push this person away, but truly… this person has been with me through every single step at Davis. I realized how lucky I was to have him as a friend, and how horrible I have been to him.
Thats one of the biggest things I regret while being at Davis.
So he came and we went to get fro yo. We talked for a while about things happening in our lives. He told me… “you were meant to lock your keys in your car… because your lonely and you needed someone, God brought me to you. Everything happens for a reason.” You know what… I totally believe what he told me… I needed someone and he came.
Talking to him, seeing how happy and how passionate he was about life made me happy. It made me realize for a long time I havent been passionate about anything. It made me realize I need to be passionate about life again.
We talked some more… and through talking about someone elses break up… he was able to communicate what I need to do now. Talking about his friend he said that he told her … he would always be there for her whenever she needed it, and that right now she just needs to focus on friends and her work, because when that person who shes meant to be with comes around, she will know. It will happen, just when its supposed to.
Talking to my friend… I realized a few things… I realized I need to change because I am hypocritical, I need to realize the important things in my life, I need to find passion again, I need to keep my friends close and have fun and I need to let go of my boyfriend… knowing that when the times right the person who I am supposed to be with will come. Wether its him or not.
Right now I need to focus on me.
So… after a long week, I was indirectly given everything I needed at that very point in my life.
Everything happens for a reason… even if it happens in the strangest ways.
